I cannot stop listening to Pink Floyd today. Seriously, I've listened to "Shine on you Crazy Diamond" like 6 times now. I am on a binge.
Weird, right? I actually am a normal person. I'm mean, outside of all of this weird shit that's been going down, I'm a pretty average guy. I have a family, I had some friends (not many, most moved when college started as I said in my first post, but I still talked to them, and I had a few people I'd go out with here every once and a while), I have crushes on girls, I'm a type 1 diabetic, I play guitar, I go to school, I have a job...it wasn't anything spectacular, but life was normal. Normal can be good.
But ever since all this shit started happening, first the dreams, then the whole being sick (have I mentioned I still perpetually feel like crap? because I do), and now....just...it feels like all this stuff is taking over. My grades have gone done the fucking toilet, I've missed so much work I'm probably going to get fired soon, I haven't talked to anyone but Colin in the last week, and I spend most of my time at home locked in my room.
I think that's why I want to find Dan...if I can find him, then maybe everything can go back to normal. I'll find out he just went to boarding school or something and that I was just having some bad fever dreams or something. I'm just...obsessed. I don't like it, but I can't help it. Today was the first time in weeks I was able to NOT be thinking about all this (thanks to Roger Waters' transcendent bass lines).
Who knows. Maybe this will all work out, and then I can just make this like a regular blog or something...talk about music or movies or girls or how my day was or just life in general...
Fuck I am depressed now.